You See!!

You See. 

You see, for me its seems like no matter how nice and caring I am in a friendship, they all go back to their abusive ex or go off to a guy that treats them like pure sh__.. Now don't get me wrong, when I say 'nice guy' I don't mean a pushover or letting a guy walk all over me...But it seems to me that if I was an asshole I wouldn't be getting hurt all the time...but idk...its hard for me to act like that....but damn it, if I get my heart broken one more time I swear to god im going to ---- myself...But anyway, should I go against my true self and start acting like a jerk? I have to much good to offer someone then wasting my time on you asshole like you in VA. And you know who I'm talking about.